I guess the reason I wanted to post about stress is that we all have it and we all deal with it a little differently. I didn’t know how to deal with it very well for many years. I would stuff it and then it would have to eventually come out and it usually manifested in some illness or symptoms like headaches etc. I’m sure it was a big cause of my seizures as well. But, since being with Chris I have learned to “let go” of a lot of stresses, especially the ones I have no control over. I have also learned to control my reactions. To not let it bother me or if it does, recognize it and then let it go. At this time, I can’t handle much stress at all and my body can’t differentiate between “good” and “bad” stress. It is all just stress and I get sick if I have too much of it. So, we have created a life as stress free as possible. We live simply. I don’t have much energy these days so I have to be home most of the time. We spend as much time together as we can and I spend a lot of time in bed. I hope to change this over time and after seeing the right doctors and getting the proper treatments. I am hopeful. I am looking forward to days that I can paint as much as I want to. Right now with my limited energy, by the time I got the palette ready and my paper out and the picture outlined, I would have to lay down. It is frustrating. But, now with more space in my studio I will be able to leave everything out after setting up and should be able to do a little bit here and a little bit there. Not ideal, but still doing something is far better than doing nothing. I miss it. Kasie has been here and she has really been having fun painting and creating. I want to give her some basic watercolor lessons. She is helping to feed my spirit. I’m sure I will touch on stress again in the future. It is a big part of why I am so sick and why I have been sick most of my life. But, I am changing how I handle it and I think this will make a change in how I feel. I think it will anyway.